It has recently come to my attention that there is "resentment" and "chatter" in the local yoga community about my "success". People feel I don't have enough experience to own a studio or co-lead a teacher training. They feel I have not yet paid my dues. I rarely address gossip, but this has been weighing on me heavy. The fact is, these people are correct. 100%.
I opened my studio just a few months after I received my certification. That's crazy! Out of the 3,000 years worth of yoga knowledge (is that number even correct? I'm not sure.), I have a handle on about 1% of it. My understanding of anatomy is minimal. I struggle with sequencing. I haven't even attempted to learn sanskrit. During meditation, my mind starts to wander at about the 6-minute mark - you caught me! I couldn't tell you which poses balance which chakras. There isn't enough space here for me to tell you about how much I do not know. And that doesn't even include the stuff I don't know that I don't know!
Here is the thing. I have NEVER pretended to be something I am not. I am very honest with my students about my experience, or lack thereof (I'm more of a cup-half-full kind of gal myself). When a student asks me a question I don't know the answer to, I'm not afraid to say, "I'm not sure, let me find out for you". It was never my plan to open a yoga studio. It just kind of happened. And I am so glad it did.
The 1% of yoga that I do know has changed my life. It would be a shame if I didn't share that with my corner of the world. It is what I do not know that gets me so excited about practicing and teaching yoga every single day. There is always something new to learn and every day I am humbled by what I do not know. Operating STUDIO B is my way of paying my dues and I am not ashamed of or insecure about that one bit.
Furthermore, the only way to learn is to get out and do. Every good entrepreneur or person at the top of their field knows that.
I'm not looking for reassurance or praise. I don't need it. I'm confident in what I do and do not know and I am secure about my place in the yoga community.
I am sharing this because haters are gonna hate. Doubters are gonna doubt. Non-doers are gonna talk (and not do!).
If the lie that you are not good enough or that you do not know enough is holding you back from doing something, stop letting it and just go do that thing you're not good enough yet to do. Time waits for no one. Go out into the world and take action, fail, let people talk shit. That is the only way to go from the new kid on the block to the top of your field. And when you get to the top, guess what? You still won't know shit. And that, my friends, is the magic of it all.